COLIN SELF

Sometimes the best thing to do when you need to write about yourself is to read things written by people who you wished you were. When you read these douments, you can agree upon liking things they have written about themselves, and then say those things about yourself in your document.

This works for a while, until eventually you need to differentiate yourself from these other writers or artists. At this point, the best thing to do is to interview yourself.

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Q: Hello Colin, it is so nice to be here with you today. Thank you for your time.
(It is very important to feel appreciated for talking to yourself)

A: Thank you! It’s a good day for it.

Q: So Colin, in applying to the Princess Grace Foundation, they are asking you what your dreams and desires are for your work now and in the future. Does anything come to mind?

A: Well definately, yes! Just from sort of looking over my last statement of purpose, I really wanted to continue this personal/public journey that I have shared with my audiences. Staging myself for intimacy does some very powerful things.

Q: What do you mean?

A: I mean, I feel like when I as a performer can put myself out there on a stage and do something like take my shirt off or sing a song, it can set a good example for exposing yourself. Hopefully the audience will

Meghan McNealy wrote about my airpost disaster and not getting to understand distance connection when it comes unexpectedly.

2.)

bag strain standing swollen goodbye, somewhat purple. i will miss
miss miss this airplane; > suspension
hanging over the air sudden
suspension between here and there >
a magic continuum in the place of
bubbles.
“this is truly the time for rituals” (in transition) and play
>
have been making things and arranging them
electrified, please mail
my books, our connection,
we never relax,
what is this verge we are
on? why the sudden relapse,
circuit, continuum for rituals?

suspended
shattering
glass in an “empty” house > art
is the beginning of love >
who
lives in that house? spaces
where art has been “made” energy
and
ghosts > dreams > spaces
inside spaces

PEOPLE RE-LATE TO
PEOPLE >
RELATION TO
WEATHER > [grasp the mask]
many images and memories
rush, escape the hatch > could
these dreams
be written again?

two boys appear in the alleyway laughing i thought
they sounded older than they looked neither of them wearing pants why
are there no songs about this

the song is god > marque de pouce de dieu
from an airplane to the
ocean > retrolific
codes and clues > i believe the secret number is
choosing the clues when the time is right >
not overwhelmed.
i want to
see every possibility of every choice every moment > what do we call
this experience of time
passing and choices experienced >

“ultimate
mental catergorizing” what-goes-where is all naming and
judging > how
about continuum
flow call it “growing” one step built off a previous
step >
ingredients always mixed >
there are so few metaphors
that can
accurately describe
the movement

everythings goin a-right with me and
i can’t believe it
[don’t want to live to call you if
you are not happening to me
right
now, but i love you, i
remember you, and i send you my warmest
delights. how
do i share this
what to compare this to
what is it what
is it > we
have always known of it but never have we cleared it
into
a field or a poem or religion.]
how to discover the next phase of spiritual energy:
what are the
wishes of religion?
tangy fruits?
      incumbents?
money?              power?
human
forms and human ‘structs

METEOROLOGY
IS A DYNAMIC OF
THE CONTROL
RELATIONSHIP
OF HUMANS
TO “WEATHER”